Well, the truth is i never did give up nor move on . Im trying hard to bury this damn feeling 7 feets deep . Well i admit defeat -
the truth is , it fucking hurts me to mouth those harsh words . Cause it hurts me to see you hurt w my words . Only if you know ….
The truth is , i never really had any guts to say ‘I Miss You ’ or ‘I Love You’ right on your face . Afraid of looking in your eyes with non-mutual feeling . I remembered you once said that you felt im cheating your feeling cause whenever you Say ‘I Love You’ i never replied to that . well, you eventually hear i said ‘I Love you Too’ right on your face the day you send me home to punggol house . Well, i mean it . It took a whole lot of courage to do so .
I miss those days and time wasted on you . Those days you fetch me @ bustop w/o bathing yet . Those days you let me play with your hair while you lay on my thigh. Those awkward staring you always did to me that gave me goosebumps . Those smiles you had whenever we bump onto each other in school . Those morning and goodnight text messages . I just miss everything .. the truth is, i forgot the feeling, i remembered those memories.
After 13 december 2011 the day you declare you had no feeling for me anymore . I tried to move on . And i thought i did when we dont contact each other for quite sometime . And yea , you text me and those feeling that i thought i cast away running back to haunt me . and you said ‘you still love me’ that give me a glimpse of hope . Well, that hope been crushed down ..
I miss you so much ~
Gonna keeep living in denial till the day i could run around and say ‘fuck yea , ive got no more love to share !’ And that day would be the day i started hated most people in my life .and i swear i wont be the same . The feeling/heart goes numb . The mind of care free. That day i would be the most self-centered persoN and prolly hated my many .